Dear Patricia Maclachian,
I always ask God why. "Why is it always me?" Your book Edward's Eves changed the way I see, think, and even feel things. I no longer walk around in the "depths of despair" as I like to put it now. I lived in a hole I dug myself. Jake did the same thing. I lost my stepmother and great grandmother. Jake lost his younger brother.
My stepmother died when I was nine. She passed away the day after my brother celebrated his second birthday. My great grandmother passed away two years later. The day my stepmother died I felt like I crashed into the face of the earth. It felt like someone picked me up, punched me in the gut, threw me to the ground, and finally walked away without a backwards glance. When my great grandmother died, I just didn't care anymore. I dug a deep hole in my heart, climbed in and refused to come out. I think Jake felt the same way when Edward died. After all, he practically raised him! Edward could see things no one else could see. He could spot the stitches of a knuckleball as it flew past home plate. He could also make the best out of any situation and always had a logical answer for everything. Jake ended up forgiving himself and moving on with life when he thought of how strong Edward was in his own heart before he died. Now I try to do the same thing when I can't seem to think of a better situation than the one I'm already living in.
When I read your book for the first time, page turn by page turn I pulled myself from the hole and put life into a different perspective. It was like discovering daylight for the first time. I now know that everyone loses someone special in their lifetime. Whether the person they lose forever is twenty-four or ninety, it happens to everyone. God has a plan for life and you have to make the best out of the situation He puts you in. I'm going to try to start seeing like Edward. Whether it's making the best out of any situation, or not feeling sorry for myself all the time. Thank you for finally giving me peace of mind at last.