Dear John Green,
There are a variety of people in this world, while majority of these people are shy, stay hidden from the world, or either outgoing, and spontaneous. In your words, you are either a "Pudge" or an "Alaska”.
I read your book Looking for Alaska my last year in middle school, so about two and a half years ago. Ever since, this book has been my own personal reference to life changes. When I started reading this book, I was; shy, hidden, a geek, and the most socially awkward kid you may have ever known. As hard as it is to admit it, I was "Pudge". After getting through the first few chapters of the book, I started to feel more of an ego buried deep inside. I am not entirely sure what it was that helped me realize I had emotions, and more importantly, somewhat of a soul. I knew though, that it would be for the best. Once I realized that my life took a three hundred and sixty degree rotation. My life being so comparable to Pudge's that I, myself met a girl that took my breath away. I feel deep for her beauty, her intelligence, her everything. She was the only thing in my line of vision worth fighting for, and taking a step a smidge outside of my comfort zone. At that moment, I was on top. It turns out that I was not what was implanted into my brain, that I was different. I talked more, which eventually led to connecting with her and her friends, right there it was, my leeway.
Pudge changed drastically throughout his school year, more so than I. I did not start taking hits off of a joint, taking a drag off of a cigarette, play beer pong, and just drink for the kick of it. Truthfully, I admired Pudge for those reason. No not the druggy, the ashtray, or even the liquor cabinet. I wanted to change as much as he did, in a more logical way and have a great ending. Even though in the end, he lost everything that he ever so much as strived for. The same goes for me. I lost her one night, I don't even remember what happened. We were just hanging out like a normal couple, we talked, and the next thing I remember is waking up to a note stuck in a hair barrette. She was my Alaska. She taught me everything I knew about girls, how to work with them, how to get them, and how to win them over. For that, I will always remember her, and love her.
Still to this day, I refer to that book as a reference source. It is helping me get through my high school ages, and help me keep my eye set on the grand prize, college. That was it I figured, college was my great perhaps. I am now a new and improved prototype of what I used to be. In some ways its like I was cloned as the exact opposite of the old me. I am not completely sure that when you were writing this book you were purposely trying to mend somebody's life in many different directions, or if you just wrote it as a profit, or if it was just even past experiences. Either way I thank you because if it was not for you, I would not be the person I am here today. I hope you feel proud of yourself, John Green.