Dear Ned Vizzini,
I really appreciate your work Ned. Your book It’s Kind Of A Funny Story, really made me think of life in a different way. It has always been my favorite book and I don’t think that any other will top it. I felt like I knew Craig in a personal way, felt emotion for him, and connected with him on so many levels. I respect your wisdom, and ability to write such art.
Life has always been tough for me. I constantly feel like I’m trudging my feet in thick mud, trying to escape from what is chasing me. Depression. I’ve been diagnosed ever since last year, but I know I have felt this way for longer. My medication does wonders, but I keep forgetting to take it. Such a horrible mistake. Out of all the mistakes I could make, I make that one. That’s one of the reasons I feel connected to Craig. He has made that mistake too. Throughout my years of middle school and junior high, I have been off and on of feeling depressed, and a couple of times I have gotten close to wanting to commit suicide. Whether it's my family problems that make me want to, my appearance, or overall depression trying to snatch everything I have away from me. I have gotten close. My Dad has dealt with depression his whole life, and he attempted suicide when I was around ten. He is okay, thankfully. My Dad and my little sister, Emersyn are what stop me every single time. I cannot imagine life without her, and if she can push through this, I can too. She is my sunshine in the dark.
Your book has taught me that life is beautiful and worth living, and that’s one of the many reasons why I look up to you. Your intelligence simply amazes me. I automatically was fascinated with the story of Craig’s battles because they reminded me of my own. I tend to take advantage of things that I find comfort in, and Craig taught me to live life to the fullest. You have taught me that you can never give up. In the end of the book, the last two or three paragraphs changed my view on how I am spending my life. I am wasting this short life of mine laying in bed, being upset when I should be living, not just be existing. I should be doing the things I love to do, and seeing things I have never seen. Craig has motivated me.
I am a poet, I often attend open mics to share my writing. I hope to be big one day. It is something that always will be a part of me, and I will always appreciate the art of finding yourself in between letters. I think I love writing so much because it's the one thing I do that isn't simple. I go outside of my comfort zone when it comes to writing and I challenge and test my abilities. I connect with you and Craig because I know the taste of ink, metaphorically speaking. Sharing the same experiences with a person can really change your point of view.
I can’t thank you enough for being someone who I automatically trust just with the power of your words. It was a pleasure to read your book and connect with Craig. Your book has inspired me to live with my head up high, enjoying the most simplest things in life. You have given me hope and the ability to find strength to speak. It's soothing to know someone else knows how you feel.